This past July my Dad passed away and it made me realize how many things I wish I could have said. I know it's not good to regret things but I'm such a neurotic person and I think alot about things i should have changed. My Dad passing has really bothered me.....also, the fact that I didn't get so say sorry for not being around and loving him more. :[ It's hard losing a parent and especially just the thought of him killing himself the way he did...why couldn't he just overcome his addictions? I'll never know.
I can't listen to The Beatles anymore; and forget even thinking about him. I hate to cry since my eyes get all swollen and my nose gets ridiculously red! I think I may be the ugliest person after I cry,haha! But one thing I do think of is how his regret ate away at him and how he wasn't able to rise above it...he let it eat away at everything around him and it lead to him dying. I don't want to be like that,ya know?
I want to know that every day that God has graced me with is full of some kind of purpose whether it be loving on my kids or hanging with my Grams. I am a simple minded sort of person so small things make me happy :) I don't need to travel the world to be happy...although I would love to go to Asia.....
Ta ta for now Harley bug is itching to get on here and I have a million other things to do,sigh. Housework is never ending!!
Ciao!
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